Tear Stained Cheeks

It is with tear stained cheeks that I write today. Something happened that I didn't think would happen for a long time and definitely not right now. This morning in church I was released as the Young Women's First Counselor and called as a visiting teaching supervisor. As I knew this day would eventually come I never thought it would be today. I am very sad to be leaving the young women's organization and will miss everyone greatly. I do not know why I was called to this new position and released from my other, and I may never know why. I just hope that in my time spent in young women's I was able to touch at least one of the girls lives and influence them not to take the broken road I did to get to where I am today with my eternal family. I hope that I have lived as an example to these young women and that they have learned what they need to from me. It is very difficult for me right now and I am sure it will be even more so in June. I will still be going to camp with them as I am the camp specialist and have been preparing them for this years girls camp. I have been looking forward to it all year and have not been able to wait for it, wanting it to come faster, yet now I want it to take as long as possible to get here as I know that will be the defining moment of the end of my calling. As for many of is and with many things in life we don't know why things happen when they do or how they do. The only one that does is our Heavenly Father, the one with the master plan. He knows what we can and can't handle and will not give us anything that he knows we can't. It is us that think we can not do something or we won't be able to handle a situation. We must remember "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Philippians 4:13. As difficult as this time is for me I still need to turn to Christ for guidance in my new calling as well as finishing my old calling. I am so very thankful for the place I am in my life with the gospel as my guide, as little as just over 18 months ago my way of dealing would have been to grab a 12 pack or more on the way home from work and drink until I went to bed. This did nothing to solve the problem, if anything made me more depressed about it and that is why I am so very thankful for the changes I have made in my life in becoming a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I now know I do not need alcohol to "solve" my problems or to have fun all I need is Christ in my life and everything else will fall in place. Will it be how I want it when I want it every time no, but that is a good thing because what life lessons would I have today if I got everything I wanted when I wanted it. I'll get through this!